My new EID

So my Eid has gone from being called Labarang to Eid...from going from home to home to say slamat to neighbours to sitting at home wishing myself a good day....from having a family breakfast to having a cuppa and a slice of toast on my own whilst I wait for the honey to wake up...from eating eating and eating to only having one meal....one I had prepared lol.

It is very different...I call it my New Age Eid.....it is unique to me...

Saturday I spent with two friends and the honey. We had fajitas for lunch and had some good conversations...Fajitas for Eid some may think 'what the heck?' but for me it was a meal that I cooked and shared with others.

Sunday I spent with the honey and his family...this was eqaully fantastic...this time I cooked a bit more...butter chicken and rice....and then we had some lovely cup cakes and banana muffins..mmmmmmm....I enjoyed every minute of the together time...

I have family over here as well....just a different type of family but a family none the less...the feeling of aloneness on EID has somehow become less obvious for me.

EID is about sharing with family and that is exactly what I did. Thank you to all those who shared it with me.

EID MUBARAK everyone!!!

Labour weekend

The honey and I drove five hours to meet up and enjoy a lovely weekend with his sisters and their respective husbands. It was a fantastic weekend and even though I may not have been to keen on getting cold ...when we started out...I was pleasantly suprised with how confortable the weekend was.

The drive in itself was equally fantastic...yes long...but so scenic. I was particularly taken by the burial grounds atop a mountain just outside Huntley...I found that really quite touching. Cemetries have always affected me in the strangest ways. I think it is about the respect I have for the dead and the wonder I believe each have had when living...I guess I also think it is a gift, a promise of appreciation of their lives and the treasure we need to recall when we think of those who have passed. I explained this morning that when people talk about their Pepiha it is only talk to one who listens and don't really understand...now however I feel like I have some understanding....their mountain, their river and line, their ancestry ....it means something deep and I have now a bit more of an understanding of what it really means to them.

It gave me a funny feeling, I described that feeling as mesmerising but it could just be a deep respect...which ever it was it was something really profound....

We arrived home early enough to spend some down time with each other and that was fun in itself. This morning I wished I could stay home for another day but this was not to be..,so off I went and had a very busy but short day.

Allo Allo

Hello again!!!! I'm baaaack!!!!!!

Here I am in New Zealand now for the past two years. A new land, a new job and kinda a newish life...

I am enjoying myself thoroughly and can't remember when last I have felt so free...free from those shackles that seemed so very heavy...dragging that for several years...three to be exact! I hated losing so much of my time...I never wished for my time to go so fast but those three I was glad to see the back of.

Now I am in a good placed and enjoying living life day by day.

Maybe it is about time that I start to focus on my next challenge...I know what that is but still find it so hard to say...so I shall keep it quiet for a bit longer until I feel safe to expose those deep down wants...mmmmmmm

Check you's next time hey!!