Moving forward

Sunday...three days before I move on to stage three. I cannot wait because stage two has taken its toll on me. I realise that I have to have patience with this process and certainly with myself. I know what I need to do but my old ways still present a bit of an obstacle. I want to keep busy and think that there is not enough to keep me occupied. Thus I want to move towards the normal habit to occupy my time...work. Well that is the habit I must break but what I really need to face is that I just do not have patience with myself. If I learn to take things slowly, manage things in the present and stop wanting to put it in the past I am sure I will gain so much more from it all. In order to do this I need to identify alternative activities that can keep me occupied on those occasions when it is needed. I am sure I can manage that.

First things first..how do I become more aware on what I have just identified as areas to work on...well I had a bit of a read and there is a four week course that I can only benefit from.  It is to do with living in the present, being calm in ones approach to challenges and realising that planning forward is likely to be less compromising if one does it with a clear and calm head.

This week this will be my focus. I will enrol in this course and once I have done that I will consider activities e.g. gym or hobbies; that can occupy my time. I will deliberately move away from work so to break that habit.

I know this will be a challenge for me but it is now time that I put myself first and in order to be successful in my current journey I have to put myself first. In doing so it means that I have to accept that there is others as experienced and capable as I am that can manage the work. Letting Go!!!


The time has come to Let Go of that which I have no control over and Take Control of that which I do.