I have taken advise and decided that the detox will have to wait until the weekend because I am apparently going to suffer a great amount of pain of the head when I start this process...it can't be worse than fasting so I think I will be fine but to be safe I will postpone this challenge until weekend. So the jelly will be on the menu.
I have also taken great care in my food
intake today, well I actually ate what I normally would eat but counted everything for ww as well as counting my calories...there is such a lot of fuss made about calorie intake that I figure I must check how much I consume in a day. This whole malarkey can be all consuming if you let it so I will not focus too much on this. I just need to be aware and once that is achieved I will be able to make better choices. So for today I had a very close relationship with my ww calculator . Never really appreciated the benefits of having one but I certainly found good use for it today. I shall keep it in my bag just in case!No exercise today, my knees are only now feeling OK so I guess I have subconsciously decided that the rest in between the 3 days of exercise needs to be enough so that I can actually climb stairs without feeling the strain on my joints. Jogging is good but plays havoc on the joints so I want to make sure that I am rested before legs can take another three days of battering. My pedometer is also good for me as I often manage to do my 10000 steps. One can reach that so easily without even having to do a planned walk...sedatory ? I say be gone ! here comes active me....
I have this lovely picture in my bedroom
which my landlady took great care in choosing....not very often I notice it but today I find that I look at the picture and actually think...that is what I want to be able to do. Sit down and lean forward onto my knees without having to consider what is peeking out..oh yeah and look sexy hehehehe...so that could be a good thing to focus on one day...I am sure tomorrow this thought will be out of my mind.I am reading a b
ook for many months now and find I learn a lot from reading this book but also that I feel kinda strangely harsh towards a certain group of people. Yes it centres around this lady and her struggle with drugs and the lifestyle and then being able to move away from the lifestyle to make a better life for her and her children. I hate books like these...too close to day to day for me but I committed to the book and now have to finish it. Well my thoughts are really that individuals that become drug users are in my mind adrenalin junkies or risk takers..that is how they start out and we all start out sober so common sense and evaluating consequences may have gone through their minds at some point. I don't feel comfortable just accepting that drug addicts become so by accident. No, I believe that there was a choice made and the risk was considered more enticing than the risk associated with it. After the habit is set the addicts choice is taken from them by the need for the drug either physically or psychologically. Getting away then is difficult and I never want to minimise the struggle but I wonder why one would take a risk that could potentially be so fatal that you loose family and all you hold dear including yourself...is it because they feel so little for themselves that the risk would always be taken or that they feel unable to face up to the challenges of everyday life - or monotony thereof or is it because they are so selfish that they only think of themselves and gratifying a curiosity willie nillie. I wish we had a magic wand to use everytime someone wants to indulge...you know just to show them the outcome/the consequence of the risk they are willing to take. I have not yet heard a story which tell of the happy life of a drug addict.
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